Job Interview

This past Monday I went on a job interview with Stephen F. Austin University and TEA.  Going into the interview I felt pretty good, wasn't nervous.  Walked into the interview and the nerves hit.  Was interviewed by 4 different people at the same time.  Haven't heard anything about the job yet, still waiting to hear from them.  I'm anxious to know though!  This could potentially change my life!

oh this blog...

is an ever growing process.  Looking back over past posts, I noticed a common denominator....I only post during breaks.  What's up with that???  Like the title of this blog states, it's a juggling act and this too falls into that act.  The act I should say of writing and keeping up with this blog.  I love to write.  I love to blog but can't seem to do that and run this hectic life during the same time.  So it seems that I will only blog during my down times.  This is one of those down times...spring break 2011.  Been a rather lazy week.  Kids went with Mike's mom on a trip to Sea World this week leaving the two of us at home.  Mike and I took a little road trip to a potential new job possibility that I am rather excited about.  I will update more on that later as I don't even have an interview yet!  But I hope to soon.  I welcome the potential job change with great excitement right now.  The change would require us to move though, that I'm not to fond of the idea right now.  Don't get me wrong, I love the change of scenery and all that brings but with this move I will be bringing 3 kids along.  In the past, moving wasn't that impossible because I didn't have a lot of little people to think about.  Now I do.  Change of schools, picking the right place to live and the best schools for them, making new friends, finding a new church home, on and on.

I'm not a big fan of change but this change would be good for my soul.  This opportunity came out of no where.  I wasn't looking for a change and actually was quiet content right where I was at.  I was beginning to settle into my life. I spent two years in grad school and then had to spend a year coming down from the stress of juggling those activities.  Long story short, I felt lost in this process...lost in the sense that I didn't know where my life was going or what I was suppose to do with it.

Through this process, I kept getting this sense of "be still" and "wait".  Now anyone that knows me really well will know that I'm not so good at "being still" or "waiting"!  Ever!  And looking back that is why I would learn to do these things that God wanted me to do.  It took me about 4 months to come to the realization that I was going to have to wait and be still.  So I decided I would do just that.  I actually became happy in the process, I made myself learn to be happy again.  Paid more attention to my kids and family needs.  I can honestly say I found peace and calmness through this process.  My faith was tested through it. 

While on our road trip I also felt great peace.  I loved looking around at the potential new town and new possibilities.  Driving home I felt this nagging pull at my soul.  I still love this place, don't get me wrong.  But the hurts returned.  The hurts I thought I had left behind me returned.  Maybe this is a reminder that these are things I need to work on in my heart.  Maybe this little "opportunity" to leave this town and then return was for me to learn that I need to find healing in my heart for those hurts.  Maybe this potential opportunity will never come to pass.  If that is the case I learned that I do have some things to still look forward to in my life.  I can and have found happiness in the struggles of daily life.

Now I'm ready for my little chickies to come home.  This is what I call my kiddos.  They are my chickies and I'm the mommy bird giving them wings to fly.  They flew away for a week and now it's time for them to fly back home.  I miss them.